The human sin

What a curse to have to see those you love doing the same mistakes…

How often it is that one person sees the one he loves to do the mistakes he has done… Jaycee, my wife, has done some mistakes like dishonesty or disobedience. And often enough, it leaves quite a scar to me not because of her mistakes but because of she did the same things I have and makes up for it the same way I did! Then to see a good friend (actually more like a little sister to my eyes…) fall for two people at the same time… It’s strange… And all of this, I’ve done way back in my time. This is just too strange. And then to say that this is just one thing I placed in my mind, I noticed that one by one, my friends are dying on me. I lost 7 friends just last year and total 8 to include my dad. Well, bringing long life doesn’t seem to be my strong suit… It just seems that I give off strange bad luck… How unlucky could I be? And every time I be there and attempt to help, I mess up. Just like how I lost my dad. I tried to help but he went away anyway. What’s the difference? Should I feel better that I tried…? Losing one who is close to you isn’t something one can live easy with. Though I try to hide in the shadow of my smiles, I’m still over powered by the tears left inside. The only thing now is that I now have so few to let it out on. Well, the world is getting smaller. And I think we should start learning to get along and learn from what others have gone through. We all should start to listen. ’cause if we don’t, it could lead to more pain and sooner or later, this could mean to more anger and hate. But then, you decide. For I dare say that I’d start listening right now.

What do we all look for?

A big house? A million dollar car? A killer racing machine? A great, beautiful woman to hold and smooch all day long? A billion dollar lot? The latest super entertainment system? The most advanced celphone?

Often, we look for such material things. We may deny it but often, we crave for them. Every single day even!! And I’m no exception, I admit. But all we have now is all we have now. And even ranting won’t change that. And most of us really are never content with what they have. Sometimes, even greed takes over and we become too selfish with the people around us. But then, what do we all want? Are we gonna be happy when we have all these material things around us and no one to share it with? Are we gonna be happy when we just simply spend our lives with slaves? Often, we don’t notice it but when we think of taking everything to make us feel content, we become slaves to our own greed. And this could only bring more lonliness… But then to some, their only joy is to have something physically. Often enough, it brings them so much satisfaction. And sometimes, hurting others brings the same amount of joy. But ofcourse, you decide. Because for me, I found joy in life with my family despite the deficiencies I have… But then again, you decide.

Often, we share kindness to others.

But often times, people we are kind with are those who are nice to us. But there are some who are still kind despite the way they are treated. They are already hurt, back-stabbed, pushed away, and at rare times, hated. Yet still, they are kind to those people. Foolishness? Too much kindness will kill the kind they say. But sometimes, the kind won’t care! They just end up being kinder still by doing it more. And sometimes, those they are kind to, especially those who are mean, turn to kind people as well. Even if it does take a LOT of time. Although some don’t change… Things that happen always have their purposes. And these mean people are some of them. But, just remember, they are still people with feelings. And they will, someday, hopefully, see who you are. But ofcourse, a lot of people brand the kind ones as "fools", as usual. Why? For they still insist of loving the ones who hurt them so much. And they say that "You should give it up and be mean to that person." But why? Hatred only brings further hatred. And when love is present in hatred, won’t hatred be no more? So now, I ask, who are the fools? The kind ones, the mean ones, or those who tell everyone to give up? You decide. 

Love leads you where?

Sometimes, we love a person so much. We give them everything that matters to us. Yeap, even the V everyone now keeps like an oyster to a pearl. But then, we find out that they have someone else in our place. And we find ourselves in so much pain. For most, they would have left the person straight away, no questions asked. But for some very few idiots who believe the person has a slight chance, if not a lot of chances, still finds themselves forgiving that person and hangs in more. Then, they find out that the person they love has another one AGAIN!! Majority will say "SCREW IT!! I’M SICK OF THIS!!" But rare it is to find that the person will actually forgive that person AGAIN!! Now this person must be really stupid, eh!? But now, the third time SHOULD be enough to make ANYONE sick of loving again. But, ofcourse, nothing but the RAREST of fools are able to forgive them. But sometimes, in the end, it all works out. They live a happy ending for all it took was for the loved to realize that he/she was trully loved and it’s foolish to look further. And it rarely works. Half as rarely as those who strive. Some fools, or so they are called, hung on and had the most worth it relationship they can ever get. But the "wise", or so they’re called,  broke up and are now having a relationship with people who, often enough, are new to us. And they are just simply too "protective" about them……. So, who is the fool? The one who hung on? Or the one that over-protects his new one due to the trauma he had of his first? You decide. Because I took one of those paths and it lead me somewhere that gave me something in return.

To choose of love or of want…..

Well, What to say….. I really don’t know…. Choosing a course or a job is just simply controlled by two factors…… The first is "Can you do it?" then the second would now be our dilemma. Of want or of love….. If we choose to go "out of want", then we’d probably be enjoying ourselves. But if the income doesn’t match or the required time would be too large, what happens to the one we care for…….? Yet if it’s "out of love", we most probably will be ok for the first part but soon, you’ll feel the stress and realize this is not exactly built for you…. To do things out of love for another person is to endure yet to do what you want is to find occupational success…… So, now, you decide….. Personally, I’m still choosing anyway….. CHIAO!

Did I miss something….

Wel now. I guess I now have some free time on my hands. Nothing new though. Just another few weeks passing by. I now wonder though, what is the world coming to……? First, it looks like Israel and Lebanon are killing each other. NOW they say it was just a lure to find the Hezbolah (is the spelling right…..?). I mean that’s bull….. You’re killing people to seek and destroy more poeple! That’s extremely stupid. It enrages me to think of it. Could it be true or is it just a sad excuse for this mess? ‘coz for me, it’s just a stupid way of saying "It wasn’t me!" But ofcourse, you decide.

I got into so many troubles……

Being honest, I got into trouble….. Being dishonest, I got into trouble…… My day to day case always revolved around "To be honest or not…..". One time in my life, being honest became a bad thing. I would say to my gf "Hi hon, had a great day today. You know, there’s this person. Such a great person indeed. I envy him so much. I can never do what he can do as the class president….." Then she replies to me "Ok. Magsama kayo!!". And that hurt me so much…… Imagine someone you gave up almost everything for said that to you. But maybe it was my fault after all. Thinking about it, maybe she was just jealous about something. But I was just expressing my bad feelings about the matter…… Why would she react that way….? Oh well, what a life indeed….. Mid-term’s just ’round the corner…… And she got less time for me now….. Anyway, she gotta review too you know. Hehe. well, I gguess I gotta go. Won’t be able to check aroud for a while. But I’ll be posting my next as soon as I can. But for now, CHIAO my friends….. This sin has some things to do. T.C. ‘weiz kiddos…….

Lebanon against Israel……

Personally, I think this war is stupid…. Really….. All that is suffering is the innocent people… I wonder if they realize that… Stupidity comes from the this….. A war is not something to be toyed with. Everyone else who is innocent gets hurt as the leaders of each group just watch and look at the carnage each inflicts…… IT IS TRULLY STUPID INDEED! Why don’t they just grab a knife and fight amongst themselves!? Why do they really have to target innocent lives!? They are just as barbaric as the hordes of the ancient past!! Why don’t they evacuate the people first if they are targeting hidden military installations!!? And the incident with the U.N. observers, they "accidentally" bombed them….. With such sophisticated equipment, how could you make a mistake!!? That, indeed, is a surprise!! And an F-16 Iron eagle can see its target in detail from the cockpit even at altitudes of 1500 ft.! This is an obviuosly marked U.N. installation…… How could you make a mistake!!?? It is most likely to be deliberate….. (Not saying that it is…..) But let us think about it…..How could this mess be good if innocent people get hurt…..? Must this continue…? You decide….. Coz I don’t think it should…….